This isn't about blame, I want to say that up front. I'm not upset at any one person (except possibly myself) so if any of this feels directed at you, dear reader, that's between you and your conscience.
I hate having a birthday on Valentine's Day. When the dreaded 14th falls in the middle of the week, that usually gives me two weekends to pick from to declare Birthday Activity, but when it's on Friday or Saturday it completely eclipses my birthday and absorbs everyone who I might have done things with into it's terrible, pink, candy-hearted machinations. With everyone having their plans for Valentine's Day – even the single people, it appears, were having counter-Valentines celebrations of sorts – that left nobody to do anything with me.
The last few months have really been rough for me. Between October's "events", Josh's death, repeated delays with important pending legal matters, the break up with Lin, Sammy bouncing between being best kid ever and some sort of psycho manipulative sociopath child beast… I've burnt up just about all my action and hit points. I wanted to do something, but I didn't have the energy to organize anything, so I put out the open call that I would love it if people came up and hung out on Saturday night. Spend time with me. Maybe get drunk, watch movies, play video games, whatever.
Jacque was there, but her work wouldn't give her time off so she had to be in bed by like… 930. So I wound up, on my birthday night, sitting home alone, drinking and watching Rifftrax with the cat. It may sound nice, but it was not at all even a little bit what I had wanted.
I was incredibly disappoint. I was hurt. I was alone and sad. I kinda still am.
So I obviously did something wrong in my approach to this, for it to have wound up as catastrophically bad as it did. I spoke up, I said what I wanted, nobody responded… so it's not like the whole "we're not psychic" thing. How can I stop this from happening next year? Without having to do it, with my own hands, how can I make sure that people remember me, and want to do things with me, in favor of the stupid holiday?
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